well lets see. been an interesting last few days. got into it with mom really bad today. well she wasnt home but i found more drugs and stuff. she claims they werent hers but yeah who believes that? so i rounded all of her illegal stuf fand like put in the middle of hte coffee table and wrote her a note giving her 3 options of trying to get close to get close to me and quitting and stuff. well i went to alans and i was probably there 15 mins and mom calls all pissed off and yelling. so yeah i told her that i meant what i wrote and blah blah. well so when i got home there was  a letter waiting for me on my computer chair. basically her letter comes down her sayign that shes sorry for the mistakes shes done and put me through and sorry for the battles. and that shes backing down and shes not gonna sit here and try to keep pushing me. thank god! the words ive been wanting to hear for the last year and a half or so. but there were some parts in there that i still think as bullshit. but for the most part it was words ive needed to hear for a long time. so yeah finally a little relief. well see if it actually stays that way though.

well alan and i are still doing amazing. still plannign on the wedding june 9th, 2007. long time away i know but still gotta plan it well. well as far as moving out plans go, were still planning on moving out around march but well now the house that we wanted is already sold and has people living in it now. so now its on the hunt for a new perfect house. eh im sure well find one. this week/weekend i have the BGSU honor band so ill be away at that and alans all sad and says hes gonna be so miserable with me gone and that hes gonna miss me. hehe i love it when hes sweet like that. alright well im gonan try to get some sleep tonight since i slept like shit last night. its snowing out so hopefully we get a delay or closure tomorrow. hopefully! oh well ill go now.  -mandy anderson

wow need to update. well lets see. the new year has arrived. there are many things that i need to say in this post so bear with me. christmas was pretty good i guess. spend it with alan and his family. well at his house they do half the presents the night before. so well alan had this huge story built up of him buying me an earring and necklace set and everyone was in on it. they were all saying oh youre jewelry is beautiful. all i knew was that it was gold and shiny. well on xmas eve, alan brought me out a small jewelry box. so well i opened it and stuff and well i pulled out the tissue paper and taped to the bottom of the box were two keys. so i was like wtf. well he said that i had to search the house for whatever those keys went to and whatever they went to my present was in it. so well i started searching and they played the hot and cold game with me. so well finally i had found it. it was a big like suitcase looking thing. so well i put it on the floor and unlocked it and well i opened it up and just kinda like paused cuz i was in shock. alan bought me a brand new gold french horn with a screw on bell. omg it was sooo beautiful. he knows how much it meant to me b/c i need it for college and everything. so i got up and hugged him and cried. i told him that i loved it so much. well when i was hugging him he whispered in my ear that he loved me and that the horn should show how much he loves me and how much he does support me and that hopefully it makes up for everything that hes done wrong in the past and that he wants to show me how much he cares. so yeah i totally loved it. and of course they made me break it out and play it. so well ive been practicing over my break trying to get used to it and stuff. still getting the hang of the new horn but i absolutely love it. alan is my true love and we are sooo totally meant to be together.

so well the rest of the break went as follows. went to my dads on xmas so alan could see everyone. that was ok. then alan had to work on xmas night so i went home. then the week was long and boring but ok i suppose. then this weekend im here at alans and we went to his friend chads last night to play poker and got drunk. so yeah good fun i guess. then im staying here tonight as well and going home tomorrow night cuz of school and alan has to work.

now ive been in a lot of pain lately due to my scoliosis, my rotated hips, and the vertebrae out of place. really really sux. im in sooo much pain. even the ibueprofens arent helping and theyre 600 mg worth in one pill. so yeah. i asked my chiropractor to give me a referral to an orthopedic surgeon. even my mom agrees that its time to look into bracing and even possibly surgery. the one vertebrae in my lower spine that is out of place is causing me great pain. its making sharp pains run all over my right butt cheek and then starting to go down my thigh. so yeah great pain. find out tomorrow if i get the referral from my chiropractor. if i cant get it through her i have an appt set up with my normal family doctor for thursday. so yeah. here i come orthopedic surgeon.

well as for the new year here are my wishes for this new year. i want to start alan and my life together. as in moving in together and working towards our wedding date which is june 9, 2007. i want alan and i to become as close together as possible. i just want him to love me more and just be more lovey dovey to me. like kiss me more in public and stuff. basically show me how he feels for me more often. with my family i want to finally give up on my mom b/c of her whorish acts and totally disown her basically. with my stepdad i want him to understand that he has helped me much in my life. i want to show him my approval of his acts towards me. then for school, i want to graduate in june being in the top 20 in my class but its gonna take lots of hard work but i can do it if i really try hard. then for college i just want to go into college and enjoy all of my schooling and the events that i take part in. i have great expectations for this year. i really hope that i do well and that i go far this year in my accomplishments.

ok well thats a long enough update for the time being. keep in touch.   -mandy 

yay me as a cowgirl in band halloween parade

alan and i in new jersey

 eh just a random pic of me

awww my band pic from last year

haha me conducting at capital regiment camp last year

awww our seniors from cabin 3 at band camp this year (bottom-me, top-cara, carrie, julie)

me in my rotc uniform last year

my pagent picture from like 2 years ago

me in the back of my car when my parents went to the bradford pumkin parade, we were waiting for the ghs band bus to get there 2 years ago

just felt like putting some random pictures up on here. ill update later.